Come To My Senses: October 27

  • Sight: I read this earlier in the week in the book I’m reading…

    I thought about the times I felt happy because of someone I liked, or more appropriately, lusted after. If that someone seemed to like me, I would be ecstatic. The problem with that paradigm was that if my happiness depended on a man, what happened when the man went away? […] I had been like a rat in a cage who got drugs when she pressed a lever – pleasure, repeat. Pleasure, repeat, until she ignored the food lever entirely and starved to death.

    And it sent me down a rabbit hole. Things I need to change about myself. Things I need to change about relationships I have. Things I need to change about relationships I want. It’s been an introspective week. And a very humbling one.

  • Sound: I leave country music on during the day for the pups. I came home to Lee Brice earlier this week and had forgotten all about this song. Also, shout out to fellow Clemson alumnus!

    I am insensitive
    I have a tendency
    to pay more attention to the things that I need

  • Taste: No lunch roulette this week because of work meetings. It would have been Smashburger, so I’m okay missing that one. Especially with a lunch deuxlette on deck later today for JJ’s Redhots. Nothing too crazy this week though. I’ve fallen back into my “fried egg sandwiches for dinner every night” routine.
  • Feel: Ambitious. I’m absolutely in love with the book I’m reading right now – Almost Somewhere by Suzanne Roberts. I’m a fiction kinda guy. Nonfiction books seem to drag and put me to sleep, no matter the topic. But for some reason, outdoor/hiking memoirs flat out speak to me. Into Thin Air. A Long Trek Home. Hiking Through. Wild. I could go on and on. They’re inspiring to me. They make me want to hike the Appalachian Trail, go on another cross-country trip, branch out, challenge myself. So I’ve been kicking around the idea of outlining a book about my trip around the country in 2010. I just need to get out of my own way and do it.

I’m mentally exhausted. Show yourself out if you don’t mind šŸ™‚

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One Response to Come To My Senses: October 27

  1. hopeclark says:

    We need to be introspective and take stock of who we are and what we stand for periodically. But you have to be happy alone as well as with someone. The self in balance is so important.

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